***Jill’s ‘letting go’ Diary***
This is part of a series of posts (ordered by Dated Titles) where I am recording my thoughts and emotions as we tackle getting rid of all of our possessions. From the day that I came up with this idea, to sell everything and travel the world, I have recorded my thoughts on certain days where I feel like writing. These are real time, and not edited (except for grammatical corrections.)
Well, today is the day that I have jumped off of the hamster wheel.
I have been a self-employed house painter (that’s HOUSE painter, not ARTIST painter) for the last 9-10 (11…..12????) years.
I’m one of those weirdos that seriously loves painting.
Now, before you ask yourself these questions (because MANY people do), here are the answers:
YES! I enjoy the monotony!
NO! I don’t mind heights!
NO! I don’t get bored!
YES! I enjoy the repetition! (Is that the same as monotony??) 🙂
YES! It IS hard work!
But, what I enjoy the most with painting, is the transformation of whatever space it is that I am working in.
I enjoy watching my clients witness the change in perspective of how their space has changed.
I enjoy the creative process.
Because of my love of creativity, in the middle of this 10-ish year stint, I mixed in owning a local art gallery for 4 of those years. Meaning I painted very infrequently, but still kept my skills up.
But in 2015 we closed the gallery, and I was back at it painting full time.
It has been good. Through past painting clients, and word of mouth from gallery customers, I have established a good reputation in my town. In all honesty, things were just starting to get comfortable.
However, today I walked away from all of that.
I walked away in order to continue to grow.
I walked away because it was all too much. Too much paperwork, too many insurance policies, too many bills. Just too much “red tape.”
I walked away because I am tired of living a life where I can’t travel.
I walked away because deep, deep, DEEP down, I wasn’t happy.
I have FINALLY realized, at the age of 40, that life is too short to be unhappy, and that what makes me the most happy, is traveling.
Now, I don’t propose that I’m going to retire. I AM NOT the sort of person that just sits on the sidelines and watches the world go by. There will be more work in my future, I have absolutely no doubt. But the work in my future will have meaning. It will have purpose. I will no longer just be a cog in the wheel.
My schedule will be more free, and not one that is stuck in the ways of societal norms.
EVEN THOUGH I have been self employed for all of those years, I have maintained a pretty strict Mon-Fri 9-5 routine. If I took a Monday off, I usually would work a Saturday to balance this out.
My decision to follow this schedule is partly due to societal structures. Clients usually expected this sort of a schedule from me, and I just complied. But another part of my decision was definitely due to trying to make as much money as I could, so that I could pay my bills. (I’m loving that this is in the past tense right now!!!)
However, it seemed that no matter how hard I tried, even though I was actually enjoying what I was doing, I was not going to get ahead. Which inevitably meant that there would be no traveling.
BUT today I left that all behind! Today I feel like I have FINALLY taken control of my life.
I will no longer be restricted to what society has decided that I “should” do. From now on I will make solid and sound decisions that are guided by my heart, and my instinct.
This feeling is unbelievable!
And I am ecstatic!
All of a sudden I feel like every corner I turn, is the right corner. Every move I am making is sound. The universe seems to be guiding us along, and the more that I just let go and trust what’s going on, the more the miracles fall into place.
One of my latest posts on here was about listing our house for sale. Well…….the house is now sold! It was a magically synchronistic event, and I can’t wait to tell you all about it!
But, in the meantime, ask yourself; Are you happy? Is what you are doing really full filling you?
It is TIME to be asking these questions. It is TIME to make a change if you need to!
We MUST remember that we are NEVER too old to start living the life we WANT to live.
Life is short!
Let’s get busy!!!
** Thanks for reading! This is part of a larger group of blog posts about us letting go of all of our possessions to go traveling. If you would like to read from the beginning, click here.**
To learn about where I have previously traveled, click here.
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